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RUSH July 3, 2010 The Healing Road
Ive been dealing with grief going on 16 yrs now. Most of you know my “tragic story”. For the most part it has come and gone. Waves hit me and I start to drown. Then at times Im so disconnected from it that it seems like someone else's story. All of the losses were terrible but the death of my Brother Stephen was the most painful, or at least that how it seemed. He was the first to die and he was only 27 yrs old, plus he died In an unusual way that has a layer of taboo all over it. (certainly makes no sense and was stupid) Not to mention he passed on Halloween...Spooky. It was so unbearable. I had to tell my folks and watch their worlds crumble.....It was, all in all the worst day of my life. (Both my parents passed within a few year after)Through the years since he passed I’ve done what I can to hold onto the good memories and honor his life. One way I’ve done this is through the band Rush. My Bro was a big fan and he shared this with me and everyone around him. So when he passed I saw fit to use lyrics from two Rush songs in his memorial pamphlet. (Time Stand Still and Dreamline) I’ve gone to see them on just about every tour since he passed. I do this to stay connected to the good memories and joy of his life. Its not always been easy as the emotional attachment to some of the songs can cut in an instant.....
For some reason, most likely finally reading Ghost Rider by Neil Peart, over the last few months I’ve gone on a total Rush kick, ALL THINGS RUSH! I’ve been such a geek and It has been so much fun. My best friend Vega and I are like female versions of the Dudes in the recent movie “I love you man”. (how random she is just as big of Rush fan as I am)(we found this out far into our friendship). When we heard they were coming we knew we would get tickets and go of course but neither of us have much money so we got lawn seats. We were ok with that, we just wanted to go. Part of my new Rush thing is connecting with other fans, making friends on face book and what not. I’ve sent friend suggestions to Vega and she, for the most part has ignored them, all but one. So when we sat down on the lawn at the Rush concert last night she had been complaining about not getting any internet on her phone and Im thinking “big deal, were here lets have fun”. Well turns out she had been talking to an “Angel” we met on Facebook. He was going to be at the show and she was trying to meet up with him. All of a sudden he walks by, she runs after him, they hug and before I know it we are walking very fast all the way down towards the stage. Over the next 10 minutes we get our picture taken with Geddy & Alex and find ourselves sitting in the 8th row from the pit, dead center. (Vega’s intention was only to get a set list, lol) How awesome is that. This was a random act of kindness this “Angel” bestowed upon us. The meaning and significance is beyond words. The show was amazing. The night was amazing. The most amazing part of it being feelings of joy. No more pain......done. It was the single most enjoyable Rush concert Ive ever been to. What a night and what a blessing. The healing road is long and winding but for this girl, today, Its a smooth ride. My “baby soul” is very happy and at peace.
ps Thank you to the “Angel” who shall remain nameless, may the powers that be keep you safe on the rest your journey.
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